'Darrow thing' isn't very comforting to her, in part because she knows it can't be that comforting for him. She's been here long enough to know that 'just a Darrow thing' is what people tell themselves when they don't like what's happening and hope it stops happening soon. People back home would've probably called the Breakdown 'just a Darrow thing,' if they could have done. And they would've been wrong.
James is probably right, though. And it's good if he is. If strange things are happening to them, they're probably happening all across the city, and it would be better for things to go back to the way they were.
"I don't want your magic to be gone forever," she insists, though she knows that isn't why he's choosing his words so carefully. He's worried about her. It's something she used to find hard to recognize, because no one really worried about her back home except for Miss Justineau, and Sergeant Parks, at the end. And they'd usually been wrong to worry about her. She was safer in that world than they were. She was built for it.
And now she's built for Darrow. So maybe James is right to worry about her.
She'll just have to make sure she doesn't get used to it, and make sure she doesn't forget what she really is.
"I'll be all right," she says. "It'll probably just feel like it did when I lived in the bunker, and everyone wore e-blocker all the time. I didn't know I was a hungry child. So this is sort of... similar." Except instead of not knowing what lurked inside her, there just isn't anything inside her. Nothing but Melanie, all the way through.
It's a strange thought, but the discomfort soon gives way to a dawning excitement. "Does this mean I can eat normal food without getting sick?"
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Date: 2018-01-15 06:12 pm (UTC)From:James is probably right, though. And it's good if he is. If strange things are happening to them, they're probably happening all across the city, and it would be better for things to go back to the way they were.
"I don't want your magic to be gone forever," she insists, though she knows that isn't why he's choosing his words so carefully. He's worried about her. It's something she used to find hard to recognize, because no one really worried about her back home except for Miss Justineau, and Sergeant Parks, at the end. And they'd usually been wrong to worry about her. She was safer in that world than they were. She was built for it.
And now she's built for Darrow. So maybe James is right to worry about her.
She'll just have to make sure she doesn't get used to it, and make sure she doesn't forget what she really is.
"I'll be all right," she says. "It'll probably just feel like it did when I lived in the bunker, and everyone wore e-blocker all the time. I didn't know I was a hungry child. So this is sort of... similar." Except instead of not knowing what lurked inside her, there just isn't anything inside her. Nothing but Melanie, all the way through.
It's a strange thought, but the discomfort soon gives way to a dawning excitement. "Does this mean I can eat normal food without getting sick?"